With a 4yo and an almost-3yo, you’d have thought I’m pretty used to this whole Mother role by now. But the truth is, I’m still learning how to be one and I struggle to keep up with how quickly my children grow. It’s like, I finally figured out the optimum nap schedule and they are like, “It’s okay, mommy! I can skip a nap and manage.” Some days, they do survive that. Some days, they don’t. Can’t tell you how thankful I am for every day without a meltdown from them or myself.
I convinced myself not to be too uptight about the formal education bit now, but only realised too late that I’m not in time to get the cub in the earlier phase of primary one registration. (Still beating myself up for that! No wonder parents have to learn to be kiasu.) I was also advised to start developing them based on their interests now because they may very well be too busy to start when they start primary school. Really? My babies are going to get that busy at 7 years old?
All I want is for them to grow up happy and healthy. But besides making sure they are well fed and well brought up, there are so many things to look out for as a mother. Every single day, my mind is filled up with all the little things, frivolous things, and big picture things for them. I question myself how to do better all the time, and if I can actually do better. Some days, I do feel pretty depressed at how I’m doing. But at the end of the day, be it a good or bad day of parenting, I always make sure they have some silly fun with Mommy and lots of cuddles and kisses from Mommy before they go to bed.
It always makes things right again.
Happy Mother’s Day to me and every Mom out there.
Take heart that we are doing our best, and remind each other that’s good enough.