End of week 30 already?! Where did all the time go?
The stress is building up – what else to get? what needs to be done? birth options? did I miss out anything? I think of these every day.
Sometimes I get so caught up in all the prep work and thoughts, I have to remind myself every now and then to enjoy the moments of being a mum-to-be. This is the time when the baby is connected only to me. Of course, that also means the responsibility of the well-being of the baby lies with me too. That can get pretty overwhelming!
Example, I can’t help feel worried when his movements are not as frequent because M&M has been quite active. It’s quite agonizing when that happens and if there are still many days to go before the next checkup. If I eat something which I seldom take and M&M moves less frequently, I worry and think it’s my fault.
When I return to work after a weekend or leave, that usually means much lesser time to communicate with M&M. Again, I can’t help feeling guilty that I’m not giving him the time we ought to spend with him.
This is definitely the start of much worrying and mommy’s guilt. Sigh!